Where counselling and creativity meet

My feelings are so deep, deep undercover
That even a top detective company will have problems finding them
They sometimes come out of hiding
And are at risk of being caught
But somehow, they always get away undetected

My feelings are locked deep away
I think, I may have lost the keys
Because even when I want to show them
I have problems finding them

You can tell me a really sad story
And I can appear unmoved
That’s because, I probably really am unmoved
My feelings don’t allow me to show any emotion
Can someone help me find my feelings?
I really think it is time they returned
I really, really miss them
I know my life will start to improve once they return

I suddenly feel a loss
Could this be a little tear?
From my eyes
Wow! I think my feelings are trying to find their way home
I will try to be brave and secure myself,
With the door open
Please don’t all rush in together,
Or I may feel overwhelmed

It’s interesting how
One bad relationship
Can ruin you
It can make you feel so bad
You believe you can never
Be the same again

It’s interesting how
Just one chance meeting
Can change your outlook on life
It can make you
Give up, on all you worked for
And curl into a ball
Then cry uncontrollably

It’s Interesting how
When you accept the pain
When you accept your feelings
When you start accepting yourself
For what you are
You can move on
And you will feel better
And yes, before you know it
You are stronger
Than, you were before

I can compete with him

On most levels
Such as jobs, quizzes etc
Except, when it comes to physical strength
So as soon as he hits me

I become the underdog, the loser
This was his final control over me
And this is how he tried to break me
He would leave me crying on the floor
Like a wounded dog

As he emerged the victor, the winner
Of his physically weaker opponent
But somehow, each time
He knocked me down
I got up, yes, I got up

And became emotionally stronger than before
Until, one day, I had enough
I thought, what am I doing with this person?

He cannot love me
And treat me this way

I cannot and will not carry on this way
Then, once I made this decision
I felt lighter and emotionally stronger
Then I advised him, our relationship is over
He said, “I am sorry, I love you”
So I said, “I no longer want your kind of love,

I’ve had enough”

Then he replied, “Please, I am really sorry, I Love You”
Then I felt an emotional strength, emerge from somewhere, within me,

That I never thought I had,
As I heard, myself say,

“Please don’t bother to say sorry or that you love me anymore,
As I am no longer listening”

So, you say you want to stay in my life
Well then, we both have to put more effort in
Life is short, and none of us are perfect
Stop saying you have to do this or that

1 The fact is, we both need to take the time to listen, hear, and understand what is being said, before responding
2 The fact is, we both need to talk to each other, about how we have both hurt each other

We need to allow each other time to say everything
We need to be vulnerable with each other
We need to be honest with each other

Then we need to have regular talks together, spend time together, and put each other first.

This is a time for action. As we know, action speaks louder than words.
We need to stop comparing each other to people or other people relationships

As, we can never truly know them or what really happens in their relationship. And this causes unnecessary disappointment in each other, without ever truly having the full information.

When we have done all the above

Then we can work towards a more authentic and happier relationship.

Christmas is fast approaching,

And the preparations have started

But are you really looking forward to Christmas?

The recent death of a loved one, relationship breakups
or even deciding where to go for Christmas can be reasons why you’re not really looking forward to Christmas. The media is showing pictures of happy families and happy couples everywhere

But what if you are one of the people who is not really looking forward to Christmas?